imperfection

2006-02-28T00:21:00.000-08:00

okay.. i have not posted for a REALLY long time! (: anyway i have a good reason.. cos my trainings and games are taking up a lot of time, not that i'm complaining or anything, but yup.. so far we have played 6 games..
Fairfield Methodist- WON xD
Pierce Sec- WON xD
St Margs- LOST :(
RGS- LOST :(
SCGS- WON xD [21-24]
Henderson Sec- WON xD [27-11]
IJTP- LOST [50-29]
okay but for the henderson match i'm not sure.. okay and now we're in the top 4 zonal, playing for 3rd position with st margs tomorrow.. hope we can win.. the last time was because we were demoralised and were nervous.. also cos we committed A LOT of basics.. whatever..
now that i've updated, i need to get back to my work.. probably update again in a months time.. xP

2006-01-25T05:14:00.000-08:00

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day..
i was loved, and then there was no more..
you promised you would catch me, and i trusted you..
i can't put you out of my head..
you hit me where it hurts most..
betrayed..

2006-01-22T04:31:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS SONG!! xD
Who Am I.

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours

I am Yours

2006-01-18T00:29:00.000-08:00

FINALLY! a whole afternoon free.. well to do homework that is.. uhh.. and then training again on thursday and saturday.. wheee.. got to go studay and finish up my homework. got 2 science worksheets, 2 maths exercises, a few geog questions, chinese compo and exercise, eng letter writing thats all.. but its alot! and need to get off soon.. tata.

2006-01-18T00:19:00.000-08:00

i got into the netball team! xD

2006-01-07T01:06:00.000-08:00

I HAVE RUN ALOT TODAY! first the 20 minute run, then the two round round the courtyard (short run) and then one round round the track (cos someone went to lift up her leg in mid court- one and a half step) and then finally 10 rounds round the sports hall.. ughhh.. I'M SO TIRED, I'M ALMOST DEAD..

2006-01-03T23:25:00.000-08:00

okay and the first day of school was good! my form teacher is mrs choo and the only teacher the same from last year is mrs tan bc.. and well the rest of the teachers i don't really know so can't really judge.. but one thing is that my english teacher is really very boring.. and could almost sleep in her lesson with the blue surroundings too.. sigh. and training was okay.. as usual.. but we learnt a new drill; pass to every one [standing in a semi circle] while your eyes are focused in front of you.. well passing to those on the same line as you is no simple task.. like everyone dropped the ball a number of times and everything.. and then we played a game with the seniors. and at 6.25 they stop our training telling us we need to vacate the school in 5 minutes.. oh well.. fairly okay for first day just really lethargic.. with the lack of sleep and everything. xD

2006-01-03T23:22:00.000-08:00

I hate my hair style.. uhh it's like very short and it's all because the hairdresser didn't understand and went to cut a totally different style from the one i want.. grr..

2005-12-29T22:17:00.000-08:00

okay i have officially finished all my homework. YES! haha. i am like so glad! and then there were the many weeks of slaving away at my homework.. sigh.. well yesterday was so tiring that i could have died. good news: i didn't. xD well so in the morning i went to rgs for training and a friendly match. since literally half the team did not come, every one play every single game. and everyone was exhausted. then we went to picnic food court for lunch. had beef noodles. mmm.. yum and we had 2 hours to digest the food.. but we went there super early and had to start early. oh wells. and majority of the people who didn't come in the morning came.. then just as we finished warming up and were about to start playing, it rained cats and dogs. [imagine cats and dogs falling from the sky]. but when it finally stopped, we had four ten-minute matches with both dunearn and gan eng seng. it was super slippery amd i fell about a dozen times, once slightly spraining my right ankle.. and my legs are just rotten!

2005-12-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

OH ONE THING I LEARNT DURING MY AUSTRALIA TRIP: I LOVE CEMENTED ROADS, NON-BUMPY ROADS. NOT ROADS WITH LOTS OF ROCK . SMOOTH NICE PAVED ROADS! =D

2005-12-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

hellos! i've been back for like 2 weeks? =D but i was lazy to blog.. -_-""" oops. anyway Sydney was GREAT! we went to darling harbour for the aquarium and imax, circular quay to see the sydney harbour bridge [i climbed it!; well half of it] and the sydney opera house. we also went to bondi beach: the water was like 19 degrees C. we also went to port stephens for the dolphin watch [i sat in the boom net] and the seafood there was great! then blue mountains was our last stop. it was supposed to be cold but then the weather was like Singapore's except that it was much drier. there we went for a glow worm tour at night. and then another 4wd tour which brought us to katoomba and saw the three sisters, the waterfalls and nature.. it was great but there's no place like home! =D

2005-11-27T20:49:00.000-08:00

Stolen quiz! Okay I had nothing better to do.. :D

1. name: Jasmine Tan.
2. single or taken: Single.
3. sex: Female.
4. birthday: 29/03/92
5. siblings: One older brother.
6. hair color: Brownish-black.
7. eye color: Brown.
8. shoe size: 9.
9. height: 160+cm.
10. any tattoos or piercings: yes.

s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: Do antibiotics count?
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: Pantene.
3. what are you most scared of?: The feeling of being scared.
4. who is the last person that called you?: Claire.
5. where do you want to get married?: ...?
6. how many buddies are online right now?: 16.
7. what would you change about yourself?: Nothing. Cos i look just the way God wanted me to look. xD

f a v o r i t e (s)
1. color: ALL.
2. food: Chocolates. Yum!
3. boys names: Not telling.
4. girls names: Jasmine! xD
5. subjects in school: Math and Science.
6. animals: Hamsters and Horses.
7. sports: Netball and Swimming! <3

h a v e y o u e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: No.
2. smoked?: Passive smoked. Who doesn't?
3. bungee jumped?: No.
4. made yourself throw up?: No.
5. skinny dipped?: ...No.
6. been in love?: Yes.
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: No. I'm not so despo.
8. eaten a lemon in its entirety?: No. Not so stupid to do that.
9.run away from home?: No.
10. cried when someone died?: Yes.
11. lied? : Yes. Sadly.
12. fallen for your best friend?: No.
13. been rejected?: ...
14. rejected someone?: No.
15. used someone?: I don't think so and hope not.
16. done something you regret?: Of course, most unfortunately.

c u r r e n t
clothes: Green Tee. Black Belt. Bach Pants.
music: Delirious?. Hillsong. Simple Plan
make-up: None.
annoyance: Don't tell you.
smell: Coconut.
favorite group: None. Can't decide.
picture: None?
book youre reading: History Book to do my Great Depression power point.
color of toenails: Normal colour.

l a s t p e r s o n
you touched: Rebekah.
hugged: Judith. (:
you instantmessaged: Eeyang.
you yelled at: My Brother.
you kissed: ...?

a r e y o u
open-minded: Think so.
arrogant: Don't think so and hope not.
insecure: Doubt so.
random: Yes.
hungry: No.
moody: Yes.
organized: No.
difficult: Yes.
attractive: uhh..

R A N D O M
In the morning i am: blur. [sotong!]
love is: How am I supposed to intepret this question...?
I dream about: SECRETS!

o p p o s i t e s e x
what do you notice first: Smell.
makes you laugh the most: ...
makes you smile:...

d o y o u e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: No! Not that desperate..
wish you were a member of the opposite sex? No!
wish you were younger?: Rarely.
cried because someone said something to you?: Yes.

N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: I don't count. Do you?
of hearts i have broken: It depends on what type of situation you are talking about.
of guys i've kissed: None?
of girls ive kissed: Ehh.. None.
of continents i have lived in: TWO!
of cds i own: 20+?

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like filling these out?: Depends on my mood.
2. gold or silver?: Silver.
3. what was the last movie you watched?: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
4. favorite cartoon/anime?: Garfield.
5. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: Fishball noodles.
6. who would you love being locked in a room with?: My friends?!
7. could you live without your computer?: Not really.
8. would you color your hair?: No.
9. could you ever get off the computer?: Yes.
10. habla espanol?: Understand Espanol? umm.. No.
11. how many people are on your buddy list?: Uhh.. huh?
12. Drink Alcohol?: No. I'm UNDERAGED. And very obedient
13. Your name spelled backwards?: nat enimsaj.
14. Where were your parents born?: Singapore.
15. Have you ever moved?: Yes. From America to Singapore.
16. What's your Favorite place to go?: Somewhere quiet.
17. Is your bed is a single, double, Queen or King?: Single.
18. What's your favorite sport to play?: Netball! <3
19. How many kids do you want?: Depends.
20. Type of music you dislike most?: Hmm. I'll have to think about this
21. Colour of your school bag?: Black with a tinge of white
22. Do you have cable?: No.
23. Favorite 80's song?: None.
24. Ever prank call anybody?: Of course.
25. Ever get a parking ticket?: Ehh. I don't drive. I'm UNDERAGED remember. [And obedient! (:]
26. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: Neither!
27. Furthest place you have ever been?: Los Angeles.
28. Ever bowl a 300?: No.
29. What's your favorite comic strip?: Baby Blues and Foxtrot
30. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: Yes.
31. Bath or Shower?: Usually bath.
32. Best movie you've seen in the past month?: Flightplan. So COOL!
33. Favorite pizza topping?: It varies.
34. Beer or ale?: Neither.
35. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: You can smoke shells?
36. Do you eat skin on chicken?: Sometimes when i don't bother to remove it.
37. Apple juice or Orange?: Apple.
38. Favorite type of chocolate bar?: I love all types.
39. Your favorite fruit?: Watermelon.
40. Your favorite vegetable?: Baby kailan
41. Have you ever won a trophy?: Yes.
42. Are you a good cook?: Fairly okay.
43. Do you know how to pump your own gas?: No.
44. Bought something from an infomercial?: ...?
45. Is Oprah annoying or great?: ...?
46. Ever flex in front of a mirror?: No.
47. Ever throw up in public?: No.
48. Would you prefer being a millionaire to finding true love?: Finding true love I guess.
49. Do you believe in love at first sight?: No.
50. Ever call a 1-900 number?: No.
51. Ever been stood up for a date?: Date as in.. Friends? No.
52. Biggest turn off of the opposite sex?: Attitude problems. EGO!
53. Ever Been Cheated on?: Depends on what type of situation you're looking at.
54. What are the names of all your pets dead and/or alive? : I don't have a pet.
55. Can ex's be friends?: Yes.

2005-11-27T00:23:00.000-08:00

okay this is going to be the last time i post in about two weeks. cos tomorrow i'm going for netball camp! and then almost immediately after i leave for SYDNEY!! yeah! okay then i'll miss all my friends.. ((: love you people! haha.. ohh and i got a new haircut! i look so umm... nice? haha
let you guys figure that out.. i'll post all about my trip when i get back...

2005-11-15T23:45:00.000-08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

2005-11-15T19:10:00.000-08:00

Look at me,
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter.
Can it be, I'm not meant to play this part?

Now I see that if I were truly to be myself,
I will break my family's heart.

Who is that girl I see,
Staring straightly back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide who I am though I've tried.

When will my reflection show who I am inside?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

2005-11-12T00:27:00.000-08:00

Your Birthdate: March 29

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.
Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.
You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.
You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.

Your strength: Your vivid imagination

Your weakness: Fear of failure

Your power color: Coral

Your power symbol: Oval

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

You Are a Good Girl

You are 80% Good and 20% Bad
Generally speaking, you're a very good girl.
(But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.
You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.
And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.
You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)

You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.

You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.

A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.

In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.

At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.

With others, you tend to be polite and formal.

As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.

On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua

Your energy: deep

Your season: winter

Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.
You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.
A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.
You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What Element Are You?

I seriously had nothing better to do!

2005-11-10T01:25:00.000-08:00

wallpapered!
plastered!
stuck to the basics!
i can't progress any further than where i currently am..
i have lost all self-confidence..
i am dropping from the top..
i just want to be alone...

2005-11-09T18:49:00.000-08:00

SOLITUDE!
-a wonderful thing

2005-11-07T21:50:00.000-08:00

THANKS CHERYL!
((:

2005-11-07T21:47:00.000-08:00

i once thought love only exsisted in fairytales
i guess there is a thing called love in this cold hard world..
but i failed..
i was only meant to see him
to see him grow away
and just stay in the shadows
i guess it was made to be
i just wish to be all alone now
no one beside me..
..but Jesus
he was and is my first love
and i want it to stay that way..
cos he will never stop loving me
thank you Jesus,
for being there for me yesterday, today and forever
i just want to live for you!

2005-11-07T02:24:00.000-08:00

does history repeat itself?
do you find somehow you have seen
that scene [happening around you] before?
just wish i could live life all over again..
i screwed everything up,
and i just want another chance..
i just want to curl up in my own lil world
where apparently nothing goes wrong..

2005-11-04T00:37:00.000-08:00

SETTLERS NIGHT!!
((:
yay!
we're gonna play settlers the WHOLE NIGHT!
happy!
laughs!

2005-10-28T01:57:00.000-07:00

DEBORAH IS A PSL!!
hahaha!
so proud of my da jie!
become a peer support leader!
:))
then must convince all P6s [girls duh] to come to CEDAR!
XD

2005-10-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

I'M BORED!
I'M BORED!
I'm super bored!
Sitting in the hall for FOUR hours straight
when you've finished you EOYs
is not my idea of FUN!
BUT that's what we did for the last few days
some councellor spoke to us about PEER PRESSURE!
it's like SPASTIC!
I'M GOING CRAZY!
CRAZY! INSANE!

2005-10-16T23:43:00.000-07:00

CLAIREYBEARY!
you are such a DARLING!
you visited my church today!
smiles! :D
laughs!
lolls!
must come again!

2005-10-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

i just read eeyang's blog...
and decided to do this...

7 things that scare me:
(1) teachers!
(2) superstitions-that are not true but people tell you them to scare you
(3) computer breakdown
(4) losing handphone-im lost without it
(5) being unable to understsand God's word!
(6) ghost storys and movies-that are also not true but are told to see you get freaked out
(7) being home alone at night

7 things that I like the most:
(1) JESUS <3>
(2) church peeps
(3) teammates [also friends lah] and friends!
(4) blogging! (yay)
(5) BOOKS!
(6) COMPUTER!
(7) clothes

7 important things in my room:
(1) BIBLE! :P
(2) my traeasured shoebox X)
3) clothes!
(4) bed
(5) all my BOOKS!!
(6) comb- my hair gets really messy at times okay...
(7) my bags

7 random facts about me:
(1) i love JESUS
(2) i am crazy
(3) i can play the piano-big deal
(4) i love table soccer
(5) i love presents-hinthint
(6) i am a perfectionist- but have a really long way to go
(7) i always lose my specs

7 things I plan to do before I die:
(1) TELL THE WORLD THAT JESUS LIVES!-spread the gospel
(2) love God with all my heart and soul
(3) tell all my darlings i love them xD
(4) stand up for JESUS!
(5) wait for that miracle to actually happen (:
(6) return to my birth place
(7) find true lovee <33>

7 things I can do:
(1) fail all my tests
(2) tell everyone JESUS DIED FOR THEM! :D
(3) play netball-quite badly
(4) breathe, stretch and enjoy the life God planned for me
(5) mugg for exams and tests until i go crazy
(6) slack after the exams are over in one days time
(7) sleep!! :))

7 things I can't do:
(1) understand the bible
(2) not be myself
(3) reach perfection
(4) survive without friends- no man is an island
(5) live without God's grace
(6) not love my friends
(7) not read a book a day

7 things I say the most:
(1) huh?
(2) poke
(3) prod
(4) haahahahaha
(5) whatever..
(6) idiot
(7) wth?

7 celebrity crushes:

(1) chad michael murray!

(2) daniel radcliffe!
(3) johonny depp!
(4) keanu reeves!
(5) -na
(6) -na
(7) -na

7 people who could do this:
(1) bernadine
(2) parveen
(3) julianne
(4) amadea
(5) claire
(6) annette
(7) deborah

2005-10-07T12:11:00.000-07:00

science exam today...

easier then i expected!

but i expected very very HARD!

so i don't mean it's easy!

but for maths and lit yesterday...

i think i failed..

sad.

oh well..

:))

2005-10-02T23:56:00.000-07:00

Better than the riches of this world
Better than the sound of my friend's voices
Better than the biggest dreams of my heart
And that's just the start

Better than getting what I say I need
Better than living the life that I want to
Better than the love anyone could give
Your love is

You hold me now in Your arms
And never let me go You

Oh Lord make the sun shine
And the moon light in the night sky
You give me breath and all Your love
I give my heart to You because

I can't stop falling in love with You
I'll never stop falling in love with You
I can't stop falling in love with You
I'll never stop falling in love with You

2005-09-26T17:31:00.000-07:00

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after
[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

2005-09-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

okay... this stupid blog is DEAD.
I haven't been blogging cos of exams, tests...

you get the idea..

well, there's seriously nothing to post.
mainly cos judith has been bugging me about my unattended-to blog.
sighs.
just had my english exam today.
my compostion was really like normal.
cos at that time I didn't have any inspiration
don't expect to do well anw.
well, HERE judith I wrote one.
X))
lolls

WHEEE...

2005-08-14T17:35:00.000-07:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it rught nowcause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

And I keep thinking of the night in June

I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon

And there was me and you, and then it got real blue

Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and

We would get so excited, we'd get so scared

Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change,

Come whatever

We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
Come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

La, la, la la; yeah, yeah, yeah

La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2005-08-13T02:16:00.000-07:00

LONG LONG LONG LONG time never blog liaos...
sighs...
ok let's start from where I stopped the last time...
on SUNDAY, Iwent for FESTIVAL OF PRAISE
and it totally rocked!!
So after church, many of us went on the bus
most of us dropped off at macpherson market
-[but not me]
and then the rest of us went to the mrt
and then mitchell and the rest of his friends went to send charis off
so that left Alison, Diana, Rebekah, Deborah and MEEE...
we went to the Mac's really near kallang MRT where
Deborah met Kelly and Anabella
and cos Joanne said it was really crowded and all,
we went at like TWO THIRTY
and were like the first few
-[considering the crowd we were the first few]
and we were like running all over the place cos the sun was super hot
and alison and diana were squeezed into a corner together reading or sth.
so then the doors were opened at SIX THIRTY!!!
really wondered how i survived those LONGGG HOTTT hours...
and when we got in there was a scrambling for seats
and we sat a number of rows near the back but
it was still great...
and the speaker was good...
very interesting...
but I left just before they started worship again...
and monday was national day celebration...
supposed to wear red and knee-length white skirt or white bottom...
but the only bottom i had was this white mini skirt
so was wondering if they would get me to change but
NO!DIDN'T HAVE TO!!
so brought the extra uniform for nothing...
dotts...
then tammy and i went back to nanyang
to find the school almost totally deserted
but a few others came later...
update some other stuff another time...

2005-08-06T23:37:00.000-07:00

So happy...
i am going for festival of praise tomorrow...
haha.
but then Joanne sae

must go queue up at like 3pm...

but alot of people are going
so i'll be quite occupied...
I hope there will be
a lot of salvations...
new people coming
into the kingdom of God...
What a great thing!!

2005-08-06T00:35:00.000-07:00

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

2005-08-05T02:55:00.000-07:00

From baby steps and finger paints
and learning how to read,
I proudly asked the world's advice,
"What do you think of me?"

With trophies, grades and honors
I quickly began to see
the world applauds success and fame-
"What do you think of me?"

"You look great," "You smell good,"
"You've lost some weight, I see."
With high school comes the dating game-
"What do you think of me?"

For boyfriends and promised love,
I traded my purity,
and choked back tears and silently asked,
"What do you think of me?"

The world's applause was my reward
when i sought to please,
but the clapping stopped when I missed the mark-
"What do you think of me?"

And now I stand before His throne
burdened by sin abd shame
Beateb abd battered by the world
I call upon His name.

I hold back tears and try to speak,
but utter a silent plea.
With downcast eyes, I finally ask,
"What do you think of me?"

I catch my breathe as He draws close
In fear, my knees grow weak.
My heart grows faint as I wait on Him
And then I hear Him speak:

"My child,"He said,"the time has come
when you ask the same of Me.
For so long you sought the world's advice-
What do you think of me?"

"Now here we are, My turn has come,
the chance to finally say
exactly what I think of you,
so allow Me , if I may."

Gently he takes my chin
and raises my face to see
"My child,"He said,"You're beautiful-
you're made in the image of Me!"

"The world was quick to judge your deeds,
but failed to tell the rest-
there was nothing you could do
to make Me love you less."

"you entered this life with pomp and fare
And I held my breath to see,
if those I allowed to care for you
would teach you all about Me."

"An innocent child, your journey began
in this life to find your place.
The world was quick to take your hand
and thus began the race."

"In quiet moments throughout your life
I whispered in your ear,
tender pledges of My love-

I hoped you'd someday hear."

"But the world could offer nothing

to fill your inmost need,

and release you from the bondage of sin

and love you eternally."

"My son was sent to tell the world

of My unfailing love.

A covenant pledged to all mankind

and written in heaven above."

"My boy was nailed to a rugged cross,

For you, he agreed to die.

Burdened by your sin and shame,

'It is finished,' He finally cried."

"The world could never match My love

the price was far too high-

for if you were the only one,

My son would choose to die."

"I've gone to desperate lengths, My child,

to prove my love to you.

I loved you then, I loved you now-

Will you love me too?"

"My child," He said,"The choice is yours.

What will your answer be?

It's your turn now-the question is,

What do you think of me?"

-Vicki Courtney

the peom is very sweet...

I found it in the Teen Virtue Mag/book

by this woman named

Vicki Courtney

and it tells us about how much

God loved , loves and will love us!!

2005-07-25T12:37:00.000-07:00

bleah...
nowadays im so accident prone...
first fell down during jogging period
and just yesterday i fell down during netball training and sprained my ankle
and it HURTS a lot
it was like we were playing a game
and then i was WD and moving forward to defend WA
and then i suddenly fell
and felt a lot of pain at my ankle
then i think i screamed or sth
cos then the rest of my team came over to see me
then i hopped here,
hopped there,
hopped back from the recovery room
hopped to the court,
hopped back,
as u can see i hopped a lot
haha
gng to rest now...

2005-07-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

NAUGHTY GIRL i am...

blogging in school com lab

DURING lit lesson

supposed to research on our war project

doing the

'RWANDA GENOCIDE'

lesson finishing soon...

bleahs...

2005-06-28T18:17:00.000-07:00

*sighs
second day of school
and already so much homework...
im going to burst!!!
and the teachers mentioned projects too
history was much more interesting than geog now...
hahas...
got "babysitting" tomorrow...
we're going over to cedar primary for cip hours...
oh... and mr chan's not teaching us anymore
he got posted back to moe main office
and ms wee took over him
and got many more new teachers...
finished todays homework...
fine nothing to blog
but i got this bad feeling this poor blog is going to DIE
i going to have so much homework that i probably can't go on the computer
sadd...
bleahs

2005-06-23T19:25:00.000-07:00

oh yeah...

dear God,
thank you so much for this wonderful day... especially for the last day of the june holidays...
and i pray that with your help i can do much better this coming term... oh and thanks for helping me finish all my homework... in jesus name i pray...

amen

thanks God...

so much for everything you've done

2005-06-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

OHMYGOSH!!!!
last day of the june holidays...
the ONLY day which i am homework free!!
[cos i only finished my hw yesterday... hehhehs]
so sad!!
-sobs like theres no tomorrow
but never mind i enjoyed myself at the youth camp
~thanks bang and belle!
anywaes i can't wait to see all the 1a people again!
but sadly todays gonna be a boring day at home for me...
oh wells...
and
*I FINISHED MY HOMEWORK!!!!
-jumps around happily
ok... mood swings...
not a good sign
okies that all for now
will post more intersting stuff soon...-i'll try
blahs...

2005-06-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

youth camp was so fun...
it was held at golden sands baptist assembly port dickson
it was almost the entire of last week so i didn't blog...
it was very fun planning it too
and my group, meditatorium sapphire
got second placing among all the five groups
yeahs!!!
and the theme talks were very interesting and quite inspiring
the camp speaker, uncle charlie, made the talks simple
so that the sec 1s could understand
i think...
anywaes... the workshops were very good too
at least the ones i went to.
the
'new age religious movements and cults'
by dr lilian lim
and
'do all paths really lead to god? - an introductory guide to major world religions'
by uncle kok chuan
according to some others,
the other two were also very good
and the games were very fun!!
there was the secret mission
it was something like the persecuted church
and the stations games the next day
yup... jacq and the 2 davids did
a job well done for the games and all
ok gtg eat dinner...
update more another time...

2005-06-01T22:33:00.000-07:00

1st of june come so fast...
time passes so fast...
anyway,
I'm so smart!!!!!
I finished like 1/2 of all my holiday homework in like a week!!!
so happie...
but i'm totally dreading the moment
when i have to do my chinese homework...
ugh...
and the lit unseen poem is so hard!!!
dunno how to do!!!!
but i totally luurrve mathematics and
yesterday had netball prac
and my lil finger on my left hand got sprained
and its HURTS when i type with it
OUCH!!
so suey...
i think i'm vry unlucky this week...
aiyo...
I HATE CHINESE AND ENGLISH!!!!!!!
i got c6 for both
and i totally suck at everything that has to do with chinese
as for english i suck at summary..
haiz...
not looking forward to next term
hopefully i will do better with God's blessings

dear God,
pray that i will be able to cope with all the homework load next term and that i will be able to do better. thank you for deborah and her lil prayer for me and that she will also be able to do better next term...
take care of annette as she had an accident on the last day of sch that she will be well...let your will be done .bless all of 1a that next term we will be able to be closer thru annette's accident...
in Jesus name i pray, amen

2005-05-29T20:17:00.000-07:00

ahhh... so many days nvr post liao...

anywae, friday was the last day of school

and den after that, debbie, joanne, bern, tiffy and me went to bernadine's hse

we went to watch what a girl wants...

so sweet

especially when the father went to dance with the daughter

(i forgot the names liao)

and then at nite went for the missions thing

im more the bonding with the pple type...

haha...

wheees...

and then saturday,

went for the netball carnival.

and then went for french class...

and went back for lunch with the netballers...

then went home and studied like there's no tomorrow...

dunno why...

just felt like studying...

then slept like a piggg...

sunday had meeting and it was so boring...

felt like sleeping

and then still have to do the lodgings for the camp...

ohh... and i have resolved to finish all the holiday homework by this week

cos nxt few weeks vry hectic

bible trail

youth camp

netball training

yeah...

lots of activites

ohh...

m still wondering if shd join e comm...

gtg...

tok alot today...

2005-05-23T17:40:00.000-07:00

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes

Because of His great love

He gave His only Son

Everything was done

So you would come

Nothing you can do

Could make Him love you more

And nothing that you've done

Could make Him close the door

Because of His great love

He gave His only Son

Everything was done

So you would come

Come to the Father

Though your gift is small

Broken hearts, broken lives

He will take them all

The power of the Word

The power of His blood

Everything was done

So you would come

2005-05-20T16:37:00.000-07:00

today was soo funny...
debbie, xu qi and i went for recess earlier
and at the vending machine, we saw our bougae hse capt
walking from behind the school
then we immediately turn away and
when i looked back
she also turned away...
then we went to the other end of the canteen,
bought drinks and saw her again coming from the back of the canteen
so debbie, xu qi and i detoured to in front of the rock climbing wall
and went to pick saga seeds
haha...
lolls...
anyway, i want to go watch episode 3 of star wars!!!!!
today my brother went cos he no sch...
it's so unfair lor...
actually i was offered tickets from joanne,
but i nvr take cos defininetly cannot go lah...
cos it's at night without a parent...
it's like duh...
gtg...

p.s: bougae hse capt if u see this do comment... haha...
shall not mention ur name...
really wonder what u have to say abt it??

2005-05-19T15:30:00.000-07:00

wow... today was cross-country and it was so tiring...
we had to run 3.2km...
but i'm so proud of myself and all the sec1 netballers.
we were all in the top 100 and parveen even got 1st!!!
xin yi got 11th and joanne got 12th...
and i got 50th...
haha...
bet you were expecting some great placing right...
but still it's quite good for a person like me...
i expected to get like 80th+
but no!!!!
i got 50th...
everything was going well,
then it started raining
and an ambulance came for a girl...
probably got seriously injured.
Yeah...
so we were let off at 11am+
and joanne and i went out for lunch
at KFC and the stupid burger that she ate was so small!!!
it was some fillet burger that was $2+
and we went to take neos...

so sad...

rebekah told me yesterday that tomorrow she has a test...

rebekah...

if you read this be assured that i'm praying for you...

really pray that you will do well...

very "dao mei"

[chinese]

got test during post-exam activites

but then sec 3s no mid-year

yeah...

stupid brother was irritating me...

*heaves a gigantic sigh

brothers...

gtg...

now he's telling me it's his turn on the computer...

whatever...

2005-05-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

todae we practised for the stupid buzz @ canteen...
then I stupidly decided to participate...
dots...
it was a very bad decision. tomorrow is the auditions for it...
somehow i hope we will get in,
and somehow i don't...
don't get me wrong i'm very loyal to 1a!!!
okok... we are dancing to...
...candy shop
...hollarback girl
...dhoom
i like the dance to candy shop and hollarback girl but dhoom is too bimbotic for my taste...
ohh!!! we're recieving our papers tomorrow...
i'm so dead... but at least i got fairy okay marks for science....
yeah... but then i know i'll get bad marks for history and math.
oh yea...
today we had this workshop on adapting to secondary school
then the guy said must have a high self-esteem
yea but whatever...
okok... bridget is bugging me for a photo...
better go tend to her...

2005-05-10T23:37:00.000-07:00

okay... my exams are officially OVER!!!

But there's still the science test on Wednesday...
yeah... whatever... and that deborah so sweet...

go and post a prayer note and still pray for me,
my maths test... so sweet right?

yup... you wanna see? go to http://lotsalaffs.blogspot.com/...
by the way if you dunno who debo is...

she is my senior and also my church friend...
short-haired, kinda crazy... yeah you get the idea.
ooh... i totally can't wait for friday...

cos then we're (the youth camp racce team)

going down to Port Dickson to check out the place we're (calvary's youth group) going to be staying at during our camp in June...
let's see : Rebekah, Sam Tan, Bang, my mom and I are going...
mainly cos all the others can't go...

dots...

haha...
now I'm slacking...

slacking like hell while my dear brother is having math or science tuition...

haha...

but then he is afterall having his O's this year...
but term 3 then cannot afford to slack anymore...

I'm already failing enough subjects...

english...
chinese...
*shrieks
my languages... what has happened to me!!!
ok so it's final...
I'm gonna get kicked out of Cedar...
but i'm gonna miss it sooo much...
sob...
*wipes tear from eye
okok... stop the all drama
need to go(as debo puts it) mugg for the stupid science test tomorrow...
wow...
I really crapped alot today...